Enough

Isn't it wonderful how in a house full of selfish people who never hesitate to put themselves before others, there are 2 who buck the trend? What can I possibly say to those 2, how can I possibly argue that I feel too much is being asked of me; how can I possibly ask more from them? I've lost count of the number of times we've discussed this over and over; somehow never reaching a common ground, always feeling terrible. Yet again we trod that familiar path and yet again I felt sick at heart.

This is a bloody bad time; pulled in half a dozen directions with expectations from every quarter. I'm sick and tired of failing everything I put my mind to; from history with missing chunks, to physical exams that are half fucked, signs that are there missed and signs that are not there invented. I'm damn tired of having to deal with all manner of weirdos each telling me different things and getting pissed at me because I can't remember whatever u demand of me. Most of all, I've had enough of feeling utterly incompetent. Don't ask me for anything more pls, I've got nothing left to give.

Add one part guilt to 2 parts frustration, u create a truly potent mixture.

And the icing on the cake is the 2 electronic devices closest to me taking turns to fail; first the phone, and now the computer. BLoody brilliant.

"In darkness one may be ashamed of what one does, without the shame of disgrace."

-Sophocles